Day Three.

"The ability to convert ideas to things is the secret to outward success."

It is freeeeeezing here!! Well, it's a lot colder in other places... I've been watching the news for the past few days and it's snowing everywhere, I'm hoping it will carry on and on sunday I can go and see the snow. Minus the hot chocolate, for the moment. Today has been a super boring day, stuck on the online access to university to see if anything has happened, nothing has, and nothing probably will today by the look of things.

Otherwise, I haven't actually done anything, and that probably explains why I'm so hungry, but it is 20:45pm and I said I wasn't going to eat dinner until 21:30pm when this programme starts about the corruption around my area, good fun for all... but yeah, today I haven't been especially hungry but I have picked a bit, it's rubbish being around the house all day and being on a diet. Usually I'd just eat all day but today, I've managed to curb it, it's not that it has been hard because I'm on the ball, but you know. It would be better if I'd have been doing stuff.

But anyway, I have intention of eating dinner and possibly a yoghurt after... Best discovery ever, these amazing yoghurts that taste like cakes and only have 76kcals, amazing. So we can pretty much wrap up today, please please please. The feeling of waking up in the morning and not have screwed up the previous night and know I've done well and reached what I wanted to reach is amazing... I need to keep this up big time, and soon I'll be right back on track! :)

So, here's what I've eaten today (so far), I'll be back to update and if I don't, I'll have eaten chicken and aubergine and then a yoghurt!

• Breakfast: Special K w/skimmed milk, coffee w/skimmed milk
• Mid morning: Apple and coffee w/skimmed milk
• Lunch: Minestrone soup (2 bowls), yoghurt
• Mid afternoon: Cereal bar (76kcals), coffee w/skimmed milk
• Dinner: Haven't had it yet, but see above!

And that is all for today, tomorrow will be my first date with her eating crap and me eating a salad (wish for the best! It's not gonna be easy!!!)

Much love!!

Day Two.

"Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does." 

And another day gone! Today has been a hectic day, I got up super early and had breakfast at uni, waited until the class I thought I had started and then realised it was the wrong day... But that's another story. I looked after my mum, made her lunch, went to class (cool day, cool teachers) and then went shopping, made the dinner, and so on. I feel like I've done a bunch of stuff, and I've now been awake for 15 hours, and I'm exhausted!

It's been a pretty good day... I saw my baby for a little while and gave her lots of kisses and hugs and that, I passed OMT with a 5.5 (okay so it's not the best but seeing how bad the exam went, it's better than nothing), I went to the revision of Sistemas and he's going to look into the whole hassle and if it needs to be applied, it will be, in which case I might pass.... that would be too good to be true, though.

And so yeah, it's now nearly 11pm and I've eaten pretty well all day and again, have no intention of messing things up so I reckon we can say day two has been completed - I even resisted the fact that my brother and my dad ate McDonalds and WhatsApped me to see if I wanted some, and I said no. And I bought these super nice Special K cluster cereal and I now can't wait 'till tomorrow morning, when I can get up (mmm, 10-10:30, amazing) and have it for breakfast! :)

Here's what I've eaten today:

• Breakfast: Cup of coffe and toast w/tomato at uni
• Mid morning: Two cups of coffee, one slice of toasted bread w/light jam
• Lunch: Two chicken breasts and tomato and fresh cheese, cup of coffee
• Mid afternoon: All bran bar (I think it has like 113 kcals)
• Dinner: 3 medium slices of chicken w/tomato sauce and brocoli, yoghurt

And tomorrow is now my new goal! I think I'm adjusting though, I'm hungry but not as hungry as I was yesterday, I imagine this will be progressive... I am worried about tomorrow though because being at home all day is going to be madness, I might go to class just to get out of the house for a bit. Or I could go and pick up my brother and take him to football and then pick him up, just so I'm not lounging around all day.... we'll see.

Anyway, that's all for now! Lots of love!!!

Happy happy happy :D

Day One.

"Every accomplishment starts with the mission to try." 

Today has been a good day. I feel motivated and in the right mental attitude to achieve all my goals, and there a quite a lot of them. I ate well, I went to class and I feel like I really can do it. I'm absolutely starving, I'll admit it, but there's no surprise there seeing as I've eaten like a big for the last 6 months and my stomach and body isn't used to not having all those extra calories, but still, I feel good, and soon, I'll feel even better... ie, tomorrow morning, when I'm eating breakfast. 

I'm kind of excited about blogging again and I'm excited to feel in the right frame of mind again, I want to lose around 6-7kgs, and of course, pass the 8 possibly 9 subjects I have ahead of me before the end of July, to give up smoking for once and for all, and to start living positively rather than negatively and not self sabotage myself. Psychological studies show that it takes 21 days to form a habit, so obviously, these next 20 days (we can count out today because I haven't messed up and won't zombie my way to the kitchen) are absolutely crutial, I'll have to slip up on the 11th of february (Valentine's night) and on the 18th of february, those are the two clear dates in my head but as long as I can somehow balance it out it will be fine, I don't want to ruin my life because I'm trying to lose weight, but I also certainly don't want to take it lightly... I'm going to take each and every day as it comes right now, where each day is my goal. So yesterday, today was my goal. Today, tomorrow is my goal, and so on. I'm going to focus on the small pictures before I start focusing on the big one. And anyone who says dieting doesn't or shouldn't make you hungry is having a laugh, because I'm used to eating around 2000 maybe 2500 calories a day and I've eaten round about 1250 today, so I'm going to be hungry, it's just obvious. I also want to incorporate exercise into my plan (walking to start and we'll go from there).

That's just eating/exercise wise, as for life in general, I want to change my school habits and I will pass every subject I have ahead of me, regardless of any other aspect of my life because that is my main objective. Every single day counts and time is everything in this case, I have the tools, the way and the brain to do it, nothing will keep me away from it. Also of course look after her and love her and take care of her every single step of the way and every single day... If April comes and it hasn't happened, it's because it wasn't meant to be. I'm not going to bring up the issue, push anyone into anything, she knows what she has to do, and even though it would break my heart into a million pieces, I know I would say goodbye and move on. That's the way life is. I guess that's why I have to focus so hard on everything else. I wish I hadn't brought up this topic because now I can only think about that... I believe in her, and... if it doesn't happen, I have a lot of good stuff in my life to keep me going. Or maybe, I simply won't care. Nah, I will, of course I will.

Anyway, as for eating, here's what I ate today:

• Breakfast: Special K w/skimmed milk, coffee with skimmed milk
• Mid morning: Coffee and Special K cereal bar
• Lunch: Chicken salad and a yoghurt (0%)
• Mid afternoon: Cereal bar (65kcals) and two coffees
• Dinner: Green beans with a little tomato and tuna (very nice btw)

And, that is all for today! Watch this space, kiddo :)

Much love!